you think that someone is your friend and then they leave you. not saying that i haven’t done this but really i don’t mean to when i do. i just get so wrapped up with myself and next thing you i’m gone. i just really hate the feeling of being abandoned and being left to fend for myself. i should be embracing this and learning from it but i don’t want to grow up just yet, i want to be young a reckless and go out and be stupid because i didn’t do that in high school and now’s my chance to be the one taken care of (even though i hate when my friends do that to me…….. :/). i feel like i’m slowly losing touch with everyone from home and next thing you know we’ll all be strangers. this is why i didn’t want to leave san diego but at the same time the exact reason i did. i have met amazing people here in flag and i’ve changed a lot but i miss driving around san diego and being stupid with my friends and going to concerts and seeing my friends and my family being so close and never really having to worry about where all of my money from the month is going….

/rant